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airy
04:23
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i am like the beer you left on your front porch step
after drinking way too much
and i am like the dandelions on your rooftop
i just want to be touched
or i might just jump off
into the trees beneath
maybe their skinny arms could rescue me
yielding to traffic lights
and siren sounds
come home to me my dear
lets play a game of lost and found
i wish you were more around
i am those matches we found last week
down at the bank of gar creek
and all the weed and these day dreams
of you and me just make me think
that reality is no place for me
yielding to traffic lights
and siren sounds
come home to me my dear
lets play a game of lost and found
i wish you were more around
i am like those calls that went to voicemail
cause you dont know how to talk
when your feeling pale
i am like the waves at montrose beach
i keep coming and going
but dont know if its the right timing
yeilding to traffic lights
and siren sounds
come home to me my dear
lets play a game of lost and found
i wish you were more around
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2. |
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polishing off a bottle of cheap wine
in our old room
your presence hangs around in the air
like the photos on the walls
that ive painted about a hundred times
but i just cant seem to get it right
so here i lay alone tonight
i used your old mug today for my cup of tea
i remember how it broke on the day you decided to leave me
the chips on the side look just like the notches in my spine
and now i know
its plain to see
why you had to go
so far away from me
let me soak in with the mud this may
let me bury myself in all these fields that i have made
and i wonder if you'll come home again
to this creature of habit
that began
when you left
i lament! i lament!
i still sometimes get your letters in the mail
the other day i received one from your grandma in glendale
she wrote a lot but didnt say much
but she sure hopes your happy well
that makes two of us
she mentioned things you said about me
but she doesn’t now
you left home months ago
i hope your happy without me
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3. |
backwards
05:06
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i keep going backwards
in time
retracing old footprints
as if im blind
i know im facing forwards
but my hearts not on my mind
i wish that i could be
out of sight
keep trying to dodge me
im a bullet piercing your head
driving a hole
right through your skull
cause i couldnt reach your heart instead
wish i was still laying with you
in your tiny bed
these illusions reach my temper
and my ignorance
ive become a blur
i miss the colors of winter
reflecting off your skin
and the way it illuminated
your deadly sins
but i keep going backwards
through my course of life
reprinting footsteps
as if i tried
i know im facing forwards
but i am out of my mind
rinsing repeating love
that has no meaning
and i cant still be fine
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4. |
popular love
03:36
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youre the weak moon during a late afternoon sky
in the city were from
and i the sun
setting and repeating on standby
such a tragedy in this city
only sirens admitting
and your popular love dont owe me anything
cause between divinity and the earth
are you and me
chaos and calamity
leading to perfection in unity
im the love where ignorance meets
on dark corners of busy streets
and i am the love between your sheets
on a late spring morning
where the sun is shining between the letters and streams of lighting
screaming please dont forget me
oh my god this timing
and i am the love between balancing things
these acts im always initiating
to avoid rejection or false advertising
inside im slowly dying
where the altars the only place
ill feel worth of believing anybody
between divinity and the earth
is you and me
between perfection and haphazardly
im constantly moving on and forgetting
stretching and settling
and your popular love dont owe me anything
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5. |
thus spoke
02:18
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keep walking your tight rope
and ill keep singing the wrong notes
because we dont strive or struggle here
were indifferent to it all
i dont believe anything you think
dont stop speaking
keep blinking
keep telling me your sick of it all
im ready to make a judgement call
on you
cause youre not what i thought i knew
keep walking your tightrope
and ill keep singing the wrong notes
keep telling me im an overstatement
ill stop risking it all
for you
i dont believe in anything
dont stop speaking
keep thinking
that your sick of it all
well you wonder why i decided to not call
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6. |
may 20th
05:00
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breaking glass to cope with the pain
reflected images resonating through my brain
your words are a drought cause nothing ever comes out
of your mouth
today was just another day in the books
nothing obscure or unusual ever happens to you
you took what you could and left us with the rest
of your mess
your broken apologies playing through that old
tv screen
all the home movies you took while we were fast asleep
idly by just trying to pass the time but im
screaming my recorded voice hates you just as much as me
your empty presence always creeping
broken sleep cycles and sweaty dreaming
we change the locks we change the doors we change the keys but nothing seems
to kill these memories
could you have meant it when you said you loved me
in the dining room that early may morning
tears in your eyes i could have sworn it was a lie
but now i see right through your ruse that its not true
after all the hell you put me through
its may 20th and i havent forgotten this
and every man i meet seems to only reflect him
and everyone i know doesn’t get why i am so cold becuase
its spring but he
never let me blossom only crushed my tiny leaves
its may 20th but i still think im dreaming
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but they’re tender saying go
but theyre tender saying go
home is not what i thought it was
home was not what i was thinking of
when you said goodbye
but they’re tender saying go
but they’re tender saying go
we move so slow
and home is too far now
and you are too far
out of my reach
out of my dreams
a full night of sleep
soundly
without me
but they’re tender saying go
please just leave me alone
I’m meant to be on my own
go
go
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i wonder if you think of me
when youre alone
maybe when shes comin home on the road
you have time to sit and think
wonder if you miss sharin your bed with me
and the way we breathed
simultaneously
wonder if you’d kiss me again
even though youd know id shy away
after all this time and who weve been
have we changed or stayed the same?
i put myself in this place and ill remain
for someday
wonder if youd kiss me again
after knowin who i am
wonder if we’d do all those drugs again
or if instead wed try to remember it
and how we felt and what we said
not numbing feelings like we did
always wonder if i had stayed instead
came back over when i left
put you first before most everything
wonder if then youd still be with me
if id really drove to the grand canyon for you
or at least let you sleep on my couch
left you in my room while i was at school
i couldnt even pick you up from that interview
lookin back i know what i did to make you leave
to steer your ship so far out at sea
closures one thing ill always need
i know you meant it when you said
"you should never wait for me"
but darling im still waiting
ill always be
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